Self quarantine and the state of the world

I don't even wanna start with all the conspiracies that are rounding my brain with all this SARS-CoV-2 but despite all that... I feel the pain of all the people like me that struggle alone at home, isolated, depressed, without motivation, without stimuli, and even worse those that over that have to deal with other stuff, medical conditions, losing their job, heartache (me), etc.

I feel you, and I feel the world. I'm sad, and whilst I'm conscious about what we all ought to do, my brain just wants to drawn even more -.-

I feel so much pain for everything that's going on around the world, and I hate that my brain is making it about me because of my issues.

I'm sad, I'm isolated, unmotivated, alone, with only my "self-love"... and feel awful... I just wanna sleep this month off and see what mid April brings in honestly... if only it was that easy -.-

My heart aches, for the world, for the humans, for the animals... and it also deep down and everywhere hurts because who I thought would love me unconditionally didn't. And that's a hard pill to swallow.

I'm disappointed, more in him than in myself... I can disappoint myself, but I'm growing stronger, and slow progress is still progress. Don't let any codependent partner bring you down. I'm learning a lot about codependency and it's a shit... but putting more clarity in why that boy couldn't give me a chance or put a wall in between things...

Anyway, I hope whoever reads this feels less alone. We are dealing with life on a daily basis and that's already tough... with the quarantine and isolation... it's almost doom, but we're here for each other, and that's what counts.

Stay safe (from the government).

♥